love,hate,hugs and kisses

:D<3

2009-12-06T03:41:00.000-08:00

I LOVE STEFFI AFFY NATALIE TAN CHEN FEI :D <3

"Thank You Steffi(: thanks for keeping me company and giving me a listening ear(: LOVE YA! <3"x

sleepovers and exams.

2009-11-02T23:32:00.000-08:00

*BLEH*

So many exams:( I pass english, fail history, FAIL FAIL FAIL geog, *DIE* maths, *DIE EVEN MORE* RS, french:(

I shall kill myself now. FOUR MORE EXAMS! BAH!:(

BUT (: all these sleep overs with sarah are keeping me alive. thank you sarah(;

2009-09-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

*sigh*
I'm not sure what i've done wrong... I dont know why I deserve this crap from you. All i ever did was love you. Is that such a crime? I never thought we would end like this.. but it seems like it has. I never wanted to be the one in pain, but it just happened that way. All i'm trying to say is that I love you. I thought i could trust you and your words, but they are empty to me now. Imma tell you one time.

All hope is lost. All dreams are gone. I've lost you. Now your battle is won.
-YASMIN SEBASTIAN.<3

2009-09-07T19:47:00.000-07:00

You see the smile I fake

You hear the laugh I hate

You've found the look of fate

On my masked face.

You love me when I smile

You hate me in denial

You've walked me down that aisle

Behind my masked face.

You twirl me round

You never let me hit the ground

You've seen everything around

But what's behind my masked face.

You whisper in my ear

You are my darling dear

You've loved me true and clear

Take off that masked face

You wipe your hands dry

You hold your head up high

You've ripped me from my pride

And hold that masked face

You look at me and see

What tragedy came with me

You tell me that I'm free

From the masked face I used to be

-Anonymous

2009-09-07T04:31:00.000-07:00

I Love You...

carey

beatrice

en xin

dyan

aimee

nikole

sarah

clarissa

alex kong

alex lee

shayne

claudia kwan

kayo nakamura

nicole lee

claudia rolph

krystal peh

nicole sebastian

jonathan sebastian

claudia tan

chloe tan

hannah tan

shenna mae

sherlyn teo

nicole rolph

bella

erra

valeri

nafisa

stella maris

shermaine tan

rasheeda

jing yi

ariel campbell

geoffrey

adi

justin

ryan

emma

desiree

daffy

dulcy

sarah chan

sophia chan

zach

joshua g

margaux

shelby

isabel

myrza

steph

stephen

ashleigh

ben

jon lee

joshua c

jon s

gabriel

amanda

zeyda

hilya

eunice

beatrice

caroline

fiona

"The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear, Oh darling I wish you were here"

I miss all of you guys, no matter what order I put you in, I miss all of you, and I just wanted to thanks all of you for making my life a thing to look forward to. Thank you... Lots of love, Yasmin. <3

...

2009-09-06T05:33:00.000-07:00

DYING TO DIE...
life. its complicated.very very very complicated.now. take for example. me. i'm happy, oh yes, i'm very happy. but thats only on the outside. i have.. alot, of emotions. and. sometimes, they get abit hard to control. today for example, i banged my head on the wall 6 times. i'm confused, and angry and ... i just have all these mixed up feelings. its tearing me up inside. right now, i want to give up. i dont want to go through this anymore. i want to let it all out, and not have ANYONE care... but.. thats impossible.. cause all these people, are making it impossible for me to live. i'm not pointing fingers at anyone. but i'm just saying. *sigh* i wish life would be.. simple.

rainbows and sunshine.

2009-08-21T02:10:00.000-07:00

since yesterday i posted about the people who are making my life hell, today, i'm gonna post about those how are making my life PERFECT(:

TO:nafisa><
thanks for ALWAYS being so HAPPY!!! you are one of those people that have been making life so cheery for me, i love talking about how much coco sucks and how bad we are at maths and how pro we are at failing>< LOVE YOU!

TO:lady gaga
thanks for providing the great songs thast keep me awake justy when i'm about to sleep in class. you are the reason i pass my exams:D

TO:simran
it may come as a shock to many people, but i trust you (: with everything. thanks for being there for me, and lending me money whenever i need it>.< i still owe you, but you know the time will come when i will repay you!

TO:everyone who talks to me on msn/ facebook
I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR KEEPING ME COMPANY ALL THE TIMES I'M ONLINEEE><

TO:my dear readers
thanks for reading my blog:D even though i know its boring shit, you stay and bother to read it, just because you know i'll love you for it><

THANKS, HUGS,KISSES,LOADS OF LOVE
from: YASMIN <3

rainbows and sunshine?

2009-08-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

RAINBOWS AND SUNSHINE :D
well, i all honesty, life for me in the past few days has NOT been all rainbows and sunshine... this post is for those people who have been making my life hell. if you see this post and want to ask me who these people are... i will not tell you, so if you dont want to be curious for the rest of your life, then GET LOST:D

TO:*** *** *** **** ********
I FUCKING HATE YOU, ugh. can't you get a life like somewhere AWAY FROM ME?! i know i know, you love me so much that you just cant help it, staying there and irritating the shit out of me.i dont even know what i'm supposed to say to you anymore, we used to have a life together, but now its like i'm fucking invisible to you. i know what you think of me and what you used to think of me. i just dont care about our past, and now i'm moving on, goodbye, so long, if you never want to talk to me ever again... i dont know its not up to me to decide, cause i've had enough of your bullshit... and by the way, i love you. alot.

TO:
UGH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH WHEN * ** *** ******** ** ***** * **** *******

one month eh?

2009-07-17T03:17:00.000-07:00

HEY ENXIN! hahahaha(: kidding dears! helloooo all(:
hope my dear readers arent BORED TO DEATH by reading the NOTHING that i've been posting:Dhaha(: but, i've been quite busy): but i'm still having the time of my life in ACS(:i've broken up and i'm kind of happy about that, sooo wasnt ready. i hope enxin is satisfied that i'm ACTUALLY POSTING(: and oh yea! DYAN!!! i cant find your BLOGGGG!hahhaha, but actually now that i think of that GUY, on your PHONEEE, he's SO CUTE! hahahaha, but are other people CUTER!!! hahahaha, kidding OKAY?! dont get too maddd(:hmm, so bored down here): but geoffrey my OTHER BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER's keeping me COMPANYYY! hahaha(: and YES, my OTHER brother from another mother, cause adi is my BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER so he's the first(:I HAVE NO SISTER IN SCHOOL!!!):haha, i've found ANOTHER wrist band to wear to school! ITS PINK, a really nice pink, very light coloured(:and guys, before i leave, GIVE ME YOURE LINK!!! i need more(:hahaha(: kays dears! gotta go!
BYEEEEEEEEE~~

cats

2009-06-01T23:29:00.000-07:00

today loads of interesting things happened..
1: while i was using my computer in the morning, the ceiling in my brothers' bathroom started to leak.
2:i found out that my maid, is afraid of cats
3: my sister found a kitten in our garden.A KITTEN! can you beleive that?!?!?! we named it oliver (:: its really cute,newborn, about 1 week old...my dad says that we are keeping it until we can find another owner or something.i hope we get to keep it forever!!!
anyways,its the 2nd day of june and things here are really boring... REALLY boring. i cant imagine staying here for another month or so,i'm gonna die. i'm just happy that he calls me alot (::............................................................................................... <<<<3
anyways, bye! i'm gonna go facebooking (: <3
-yasmin

posting

2009-05-22T04:00:00.000-07:00

hey,
i am on the phone with dj hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

...

2009-05-18T05:09:00.000-07:00

long time no blog!
talk to you later!

nikole!

2009-05-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

how the hack do i change my picture?!

2009-04-29T05:02:00.000-07:00

today is my maids' birthday! and its so sad cause i was the only one that wished her or remembered it so far :)i hope that she enjoys the rest of today.
i was thinking...and i think that my thoughts are right.maybe geoffrey is making what he said up,just to make me happy or sad or angry.or because he wants to get back at me.i cant really judge him.i wouldnt do that to him.i'm not as mean as..... 'you know who'.anyway.i found out what she did ** *** ****** **** * **** ** **** .hee hee.anyway.i spent so much money on that!29 dollars!bloody expensive.* **** *** *** ** * ******* ******. thats all fr today!
bye loves and my one and only *******************************************************<3

whatever

2009-04-27T02:49:00.000-07:00

i seriously dont care about you anymore.really.just stop talking to me altogether.
anyway.....
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!NOOOOO!!!!!i cant believe it!!!!!i am so happy!!!!!!i am so happy but i cant write it here!argh... its all geoffreys fault!

yesterday

2009-04-24T18:46:00.000-07:00

i was so happy that i went to dyan's house yesterday!!!! we had so much fun!and her maids cook such nice food!!!i wanna go there again but my dad couldnt find the place yesterday and got super mad at me, so i probably cant.but anyway,if she invites me to a party or i wanna run away then i will go there again!
but also yesterday, the scolding i got from my dad,it was bad,but i didnt feel a thing at all.i have had so much worse emotional pain than that.and that was the first time that i wad not crying when my dad scolded me.i didnt even feel like it.i felt like slashing yesterday but my sis was there so i couldnt. i might when she goes.hee hee.i have a very dark side to me.that i dont think anyone would want to cross.not even uhhummm...hee hee.good bye.i am going to finish my breakfast now! muaks lovelys!<3

wishes and dreams

2009-04-22T03:26:00.000-07:00

on the first day of christmas my homie got for me: a copy of my favourite movie!

on the second day of christmas my homie got for me: two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!
on the third day of christmas my homie got for me: three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the fourth day of christmas my homie got for me:four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the fifth day of christmas my homie got for me:five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the sixth day of christmas my homie got for me:six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the seventh day of christmas my homies got for me:seven spinners spinning,six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the eighth day of chrismas my homies got for me:eight cute cats,seven spinners spinning,six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the ninth day of chrismas my homies got for me:nine knives a-stabbing,eight cute cats,seven spinners spinning,six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the tenth day of christmas my homies got for me:ten food stamps,nine knives a-stabbing,eight cute cats,seven spinners spinning,six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the eleventh day of christmas my homies got for me:eleven snipers sniping,ten food stamps,nine knives a-stabbing,eight cute cats,seven spinners spinning,six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

on the twelveth day of christmas my homies got for me:twelve manicures,eleven snipers sniping,ten food stamps,nine knives a-stabbing,eight cute cats,seven spinners spinning,six clocks a-clocking,five golden grillz,four hummers humming,three fresh tats, two double D's and a copy of my favourite movie!

taken from:smosh{youtube}http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2qlixJTbRcQ&feature=fvsr,with slight modifications!
hee hee lol, have a merry gangsta christmas!

father of the year... my ass

2009-04-19T02:17:00.000-07:00

asshole,thats what he is...seriously.i was supposed to go to SPCA with lexy today.it was all planned and i was set.but that idiot went and ruined it all.now alex is angry at me and i didnt even do anything.fuck him.

morning yawns

2009-04-18T19:31:00.000-07:00

hey guys...
its sunday once again.i hate it.i wish that i could have school everyday mann.that would be like way cool.you know yesterday, i was supposed to go to school for my drama thang, so i went there AND GUESS WHAT?! NO ONE WAS THERE!!!!!ARRRGGGGHHHH! i felt like killing myself.than i went back to my dad's car,luckily he was still there.and he scolded me like shit i tell you.cause he had to wake up at like 7.00am, and then no one was there.but he is okay now, but i guess its cause he is sleeping hee hee. later i am going to SPCA with lexy babe to do our english brochure thang.i cant wait to get away from this messed up crap i call family sia.on my birthday last wednesday, the only person i loved in this family did not wish me happy birthday.i was so looking forward to seeing my brother and then he also never say hapy birthday to me.i am going to miss him alot.he is leaving for Bangkok today at around 2.15pm.i just hope that he will come back soon.than he can cook for us again!lol...jkjk.i really will miss him.hee hee.my fringe looks good today i'll so you later.oh shit! my dad is coming down i gtg now!!!!!

HEY WORLD! <3

2009-04-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

Hey dear readers,
My name…is Yasmin Sebastian and I am sure that you have heard of me before. This….. as you can see, is me blog. Hope that you guys are not bored to tears reading it. Hee hee lol. I love my school loads, and I wish that I could stay there for more than six years. Since this is my first post, I do not have much to blog. So goodnight!
*xoxo* Yasmin